Song for John

Song For John
You said I was your armor
You said I was strong
But now I sit here crying
Just to prove you wrong

I am not your anchor
I am not your savior’s sea
I don’t want to hold you down
But I can’t set you free

Just say anything you want, dear
I’ll be anything you need

With our hearts like paper
Folded and torn
Edges frayed like fabric
From all the love we have worn

I wear your love like a blanket
You are my warmest memory
I use pieces of you
To patch these holes in me

Your last breath was peaceful
As you unlocked that door
You’re all I ever wanted
Now I want more

Your death on my brain is still hot
Just like my anger
Say that you want me
Say that you need me
Say you forgive me
And I will let you go
I can’t be your road
Are they angels or aliens
I know that now you know

You forget to remember
The things you have lost
You pay with your heart
Before you realize the cost
For all the money I have spent
It’s bought me nothing but pain
No money could ever compare
To all that I have gained

Your last breath was peaceful
Still you hang around my door
You are all I ever wanted
No you have more